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Seventyfour
06:27
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I'm feeling kind of strange tonight
so strange
I wouldn't wish for you
what I am going through
I know that life can suck a bit
be free of joy but full of shit
waves of emotion make me crave for more
more of everything, more of anything
I fear I'm not insane, although I could have that confused
beauty drips through eyes that I might have never used
through dust and ash I'm prancing
by far the strangest in the hive
and hear me, feel me, watch me dancing
in the ruin of my life
nothing seems real anymore
a lucid dream that kills the doubt
and I will never understand how I have ever lived without
please know I've tried, I tried so hard
(but now)
I'll shout it out loud and make them all hear
put flame to this world and make them all fear
the truth in the moment, I can't deny
(I can not tell you why)
I'm feeling everything tonight
emotion of a thousand lives
reason is the enemy tonight
watch out, the beast is roaming free
run and hide, 'cause I will be the enemy
c'mon just take the pill and do not let go
calm your pulse down and do not let go
yeah it grows on you and it takes its piece
but it pacifies and it atrophies
keep safe distance to the beauties of life
without emotion it's easy to survive
c'mon just take the pill
just take the pill
c'mon just take the pill
man, just take it
calm down and don't give in to rage
locked up in my medication cage
feel it clawing through my skin
scratching and cutting from within
I don't know why
I'm feeling kind of strange tonight
please know that years and years I've tried
but I want more
(I want everything)
I'm feeling everything tonight
emotion of a thousand lives
reason is the enemy tonight
the beast is roaming free tonight
unleashed what I had locked inside
and I want more of all the things I never had
(I want more)
and I want more
(of anything)
and I want more
(I want more)
I want more
(I want everything)
I am the enemy
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2. |
The Lies We Prefer
05:54
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a pisspot of blended happiness
the itch of dry-cleaned love
a hint of beautiful emptiness
on the face and smile I loathe
give me a reason, make it worthwhile
with truthful devotion and stupid denial
give me a reason, I want to be honest
say it out loud
giving birth to a feeling new to this world
in a swamp of shattered glass
I want to hurt you
and when I see you cry
sweet torment in your eyes
I'll feast on your tears
and dry them with anger
every step of the way
piece by piece
I will take out the lie
forever, starting today
tear by tear
until none is left to cry
a pleasant game come play with me
come and find me
look past the face, past the smile
can you see me (I see you)
can you feel me (I felt you, always)
You know what I can do, what I am and what you are
I can never change
I will loathe you forever
but I'll always be yours
will be always and never
I will never hurt
it will always be
our beautiful lie
as I'm wondering if I blacked out
forgot what I just thought about
in this moment a life slipped away
why does the world seem to breathe so loud
breathe in the air just to breathe it out
starting over and over again
as I'm trying again to figure out
what it was I can't live without
In this moment a life just slipped away
wondering, wondering, wondering what I thought about
a moment slipped away
I may never know
it may always be
my beautiful lie
as I'm wondering what I left out
I forgot what I just thought about
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3. |
Drops To The Lake
03:30
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this very cold day
takes the fear from me
slowly dying
old and weakened
I feel the falling leafs
see
I am all but gone
we're not even
I may not incline
to keep on trying
can't you see we're over
you're not there yet but I am
as I'm leaving
a song in mind
I sing off the burden
I carried for so long
I cannot go back to you
dreaming on a cold day
I am
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Ripples
04:50
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a thousand words are tumbling out
stumbled by fury and self doubt
a blur of truth and fiction
in the heat of our friction
say it, nonsense, leave me alone
freak out elsewhere
come on now you know I'm right
let it go, I can't be the strong one
you're running away again
weakness
it's just in your head
lies
why can't you know, I'm who I am
please take my hand
deep down I long for you
but never again, leave me alone
don't come back over
I want you to know I am hurt
drifting through an emptiness
on a silent path I stride
I am nothing less pathetic
than everyone else I laughed about
and I'm trying to get rid of you
to lock you out
you're everywhere around me
for that I hate you even more
you're gone and I'm glad you are
yes, you're gone and I'm glad you are
don't want to care about you
I tried, but still I do
I just want to be free
but you are
everywhere, everything
never again, please never again
deep down I long for you
but never again, leave me alone
don't come back over
I want you to know I am hurt
deep down I'm bound to you
forget what I said, don't ever leave me
please come back over
I want you to see how much I'm hurt
I can not
let you go
so please don't ever come back to me
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5. |
Still Awake
07:40
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Into the light, that distant glow
salvation out of reach
through winter, through the cold
for everyone and each
and why not sooner, why so fast
I am rushing through the night
can not help it, can't withstand
I am drawn to the light
where is all I wanted and everything I ever asked for
I had so many plans but from the start I always knew I'd fail
the shadows they need me, they whisper to me
as if they could read my thoughts
come closer and hide me, be blanket on me
is this what it's like to die
I'm so close to sleeping, why can't I let go
I am awake
I am awake
holding on with less of doubt
the root of hope has yet to sprout
and as the dream is shattering
another step closer to seeing things as they are
I'm so tired of faking, believe it
another step closer, revealing what we are
here I am still me
how can I be still awake when I should be sleeping
how can I be still awake, why can't I let go
another step closer to seeing and knowing
so tired of faking, of lying and smiling
another step closer but still so very far away
into the nothing I want to give myself to you
I have never tried anything to face what I've become
into the nothing I want to give myself to you
and I know that I have always been dreaming
living with my eyes closed
another step closer to seeing things as they are
and I'm so tired of faking, believe it
to the light
through the cold
revealing what we are
never free, never be
not today, not ever
see what I've become
as it fades
as distant as we are
never will, always still
from the deep I'm crawling
screaming
into the light
it's so close
but still so very far
as it was
as it is
to the light
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